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Sometimes I stop for moments to think about myself, about my life, about what I was and what I became, and how that happened. I think about many events that happened and lead to complete changes in my life. At age 18 I was like a little girl who needs some body to take care of her, who needs a hug of her mom when she gets in a trouble. I was the girl that cannot do anything or take any decision without her family's guides or their permission. However, when I became 19 years old, I got married, and it was the biggest change in my life. I was happy at the first because I will be married and I will wear the white dress which is dream any girl. And I will have a Soulmate who will bring the whole world for me and make my life happy. Suddenly, I found myself in a different house with a newt person for me, with a person that I don't know too much about him and about his life. Here my life challenges started after I was the girl that enjoys her life without any responsibilities or problems. Responsibilities were the most challenge of my new life. In our culture, as a wife I have to take care of everything inside the house like cleaning and cooking. Sometimes I need to cook for my husband's family when they come to visit us, I have to cook for 8 people, it was so crazy because I was just started to learn cooking for two people only for my husband and me. Of our customs and traditions that the cooked food for guests must be delicious and enough, and if it was little or delivered from a restaurant that means we don't respect our guests. Also I should to take care of myself, I should be at the best appearance in front of my husband and his family. I faced all these challenges a lone because when I got married, I leaved my family and I moved to live with my husband in a different city.

The second big challenge in my life is being a mom, I have the first baby when I was 20 years old. Do you imagine that? 20 years old girl is a mom. My daughter now is 6 years old and when we go somewhere together, or meet new people, they think she is my little sister they never believe that she is my daughter and I'm her mother. Being a wife and mom is not an easy tasks especially for young ages like me. Despite this, I'm not regret getting into these experiences because these experiences made me a different person who has goals in the life. I learned how to overcome all challenges without any other helps, and how to benefit of these challenges in my life.

When I got married I was still student for the second year in the college, and one year before graduating, I got my first baby. After I graduated from the collage, my husband told me "you still young to stay home and taking care of our girl". I didn't understand what does he mean, but later he told me what he was thinking about. He told me: "why we don't apply to get a scholarship for you, then you will be able to earn your master degree from a good university out Saudi Arabia, in addition, you will earn a new language". When I laughed on him, he said: why not!! You match all the conditions of the scholarship. Actually, he surprised me at the first, and I thought he wasn't serious in his talking, but later I knew that he was thinking of the scholarship before I graduate. From this moment, I started to understand my husband, and how much he loves me and cares about my future. After he applied for me, we got the approval. It was like a dream for me, and he was very happy of the scholarship more than me. In a short period of time, I found hem did all the procedures of the scholarship, visa, and travelling too. Everything happened quickly and that do to my husband's and his interested.

One day, I opened my eyes to find myself in other land and different culture, I found myself in United States. The biggest problem that we faced in U.S is the language because were not speaking or understanding English at all. My husband and I started in the first day class in English Language Institute at University of Oregon which was the first step for us to learning English language.

In U.S, I faced a lot of challenges that made me cry like a baby and want to just back to my home country. One of my challenges is when I started my classes, I couldn't find any daycare for my daughter, and all daycares were full. One of us me or my husband has to stay at home to take care of our daughter. However, after we talked to the boss of the institution, she helped us by calling one of daycares to except my daughter. But we were still facing other problem because we were without car, we were taking the bus at 6 a.m. to the university, and from there we take another bus to my daughter daycare to drop off her there, then we take other bus to back to our class. And we were doing that when we back home. And we were always arrive late to our class. It was very difficult life especially we had no families or friends that may help us.

The difficult life that I lived, taught me a lot, it taught me how to depend on myself, and how to make appropriate and wise decisions in my life. Before I come to U.S, I don't remember any decision that I take by myself, my husband was always helps me in all my decisions. Actually, I was not responsible person that because of my limited experiences in the life and of the small society that lived in. Most women in our society depend on their husbands for whatever that regarding out the house. However, their responsibilities don't go beyond the walls of their houses. Although I was one of those women, I was not satisfying about myself. I always feel that I'm the woman who likes to have her own character and entity in her community. I always love to be distinct from the others, I love to have or to do something special that not anybody can have or could do. Coming to U.S. is one of the unique thing that I did because I'm the only person of my family or my relative who travel faraway to complete her studying. I remember one day I met with an American woman, she was very interested to know more about me by asking me a lot of questions about my life here and in Saudi Arabia and also about my feeling to get into this kind of experience. One of her questions was: Are you the only person of your sisters and brothers, or even your relative that travel to study? I told her, yes, then she said: so you are the Black Sheep, and I asked her, what do you mean by Black Sheep? She said: when you are the only person of your family do different thing that not everybody can do, we call you Black Sheep because the Black Sheep is distinct from other white sheep. When she told me that, I started to look at myself and see what I had accomplished in my life, and how many challenges that I could overcome. I became abroad of myself and of my accomplishments which make me a strong women. It is true that challenges and the difficult live that I struggled of caused me a lot of fears and pains especially in foreign land. However, I'm not regretful to have this experience, because it changed me and create of me a mature confident woman and responsible for her behavior.

Finally, I still face many challenges in everyday of my life some of these challenges are easy to overcome and some are very difficult. However, I believe there is nothing impossible and every problem has solution because every beginning has end. At this time, my biggest challenge is I'm pregnant and I'm on the verge of giving a birth and have a new baby while I still student and we are at the middle of the term.