English 101

When I came here to America, I have experienced a new life without my family beside me. The first week, I felt empty and really sad. It's horrible because of the feeling of live away from someone who lived almost every day with me. My feeling like losing something very important. I missed them more than I thought and I called them almost every night, and it's not enough. I could see them on video call but it just a screen with images in it. I remember how they looked after me all the time, sometimes I felt annoyed because they focused on me too much like I have no freedom to do anything that I want. And now, I can know that everything they do just all because of me, because of my future life. They don't want me to have some mistakes that make me feel guilty or regret after that. 

Once, I was sick and live in such a place away from home, I feel very lonely, empty. At times I do not have the strength, I usually want to back home, my mother cook rice and buy drugs to drink. Is it too dependent? Maybe it used to happen to me so I miss this feeling. Is it just a simple wish but far too much? It allows myself to wander with distant thoughts when I was young and besides to them. I'm comforting myself to live a more energetic life. A lot of time, I wished to see my parents and my younger sister. Life rushed busy with the job that makes I miss my parents more than anything. 

Although my aunt lives with me and she cares of me a lot, I also can't feel as my mother, of course, everyone has their own work and I grew up so it is not always beside me to caring. The feeling of wanting someone next to me very intense, whether only a person in my family, it's the best thing for me. I realize that my parents love me without any conditions, this love always honest and genuine. I believe that living with them is the best thing I did in my life. Because of living with family, I can share all things even secret things with my parents, my sister without the doubt. They can understand me than other people that I knew. I'm so happy when I live with them and they are genuinely interested, never fake like some bad people in this real society. 

Even though living my own life is freer, I still prefer to live with my family. Living in the family I feel very comfortable because it is my home, my parents always understand and I can talk naturally, most sincere. But when outside, I have to code-switch the way I talk to each person, each case and different circumstances. I have to change my way to talk and sometimes it's very tired, stressful. Therefore, living with them, I'm so happy because I can be myself. 

In conclusion, I believe that wherever you go, home is still the best place and family is an integral part of everyone, especially to me. The family is a sacred gift I have ever had. Because there are family members who are always anxious, care about me unconditionally. Nothing can equal the love of parents for children.Always feel safety and family is a place I can believe all the times they willing to help me, give me good advice. And living with them is the most comfortable thing because I can communicate with them most sincerely.