Professor. Fields
I was born and grow up until seven years old at HeBi, a city in Henan Province China. In my memories my parents were busy all the time, they both 24 years old young, mainly my father was during his crucial career period. So I often been sent to my grandparents’ home and helping my parents taking care of me. Ordinary life has changed at this time; my parents told me we are going to move to another city, a city in the center of the Henan Province named Zhengzhou. I was so unprepared for this decision, but there’s no reason not to be excited; I mean, it's refreshing and a different kind of life experience for a child.
Two months later, our family moved from HeBi to Zhengzhou. I’m starting a new school year and new life, my parents, will face more significant work pressure and life pressure. I had some concerns and tensions at this time, the most prominent difficulty I faced was to integrate into a new school, meet new neighbors, and make new friends in school. I can't forget the first day of the transfer, where all the students seem to be in groups, and they have their circle of friends. I am very introverted; I don't know how to talk to them. In class, the teacher asked me to introduce myself to the class. I feel shy, and I don't know if my classmates will accept me who has just transferred to this new place. When I introduce myself, I look around with my eyes quietly. My classmates may feel that the new student is shy and confused, so they all secretly cover their mouths and laugh. At that time, I wanted to finish my class earlier and end this embarrassing first day. The other day I ran home from school and locked myself in my room, ignoring my parents who had been working in this unfamiliar environment for the first day. I heard my parents talking in my room that night, and they also mentioned how new colleagues felt about themselves and whether they could find their value in the new city. I was sad to hear what they said, and I knew then that everyone had their difficulties. I decided to try my best to getting used to this new place rather than telling them what happened today and put more pressure on them.
Later in the day, I try to fit in class, answer questions actively and chat with my classmates. For me, the recognition of my teachers and classmates is the most considerable encouragement. I also have a few good friends who have similar interests. After four years, I’m about to graduate from my primary school; my father told me the great news that his work was redeploying again. He is going to the head office in Beijing, that's the equivalent of getting an internship at Wall Street in the United States. At the age of twelve, I can see that was terrific news for dad’s career and my family; it proved that he was working hard and appreciated by his boss. But I wasn't particularly happy because this not only means that after four years of moving, we are moving to a further city but also my life will reshuffle. Sure enough, that month we moved to Beijing with my father and lived in a rented room for the time being. To give me the best educational resources in the country, my parents decided sent me to the top three middle schools in Beijing, which provides me with a lot of invisible pressure.
After I transferred to Beijing, I may have had previous experience, I immediately adapted to the life here, and I have some good friends who can be trusted. But on the other hand, I couldn't keep up with the step of learning. The first mid-term exam in the new school I got the worst grades ever. Although teachers and friends come to comfort me, saying that maybe I had not adapted to different learning environments; I know that it’s my ability can’t reach the average level of this school. That day after school I told my parents that my exam results were poor, cried with great disappointment. I shouted out to parents of injustice and dissatisfaction over the years: “I don't know why the results will become like this if I don't come to Beijing studying I can get a good result to a good high school and college. I was tired in the last few years, tired of moving back and forth to adapt to the new environment, tired of adapting to the different education system. I was just stressed out.” My parents were silent, and my father sat next to me with a cigarette, he thought for a long time and then stopped, and I knew he wanted to say something to me. “I'm sorry that heard you say these things I didn't know my son. Although my mother and I don't know what you've been through, what I'm trying to tell you is that these are the experiences of your life.” Said by my father, then he told me about his experience and frustrations in these years after his work transferred over and over again. Because of the appreciation of the head office, my father got the position of deputy general manager when he just arrived in Beijing. As he has just transferred from the local branch, his colleagues have a lot of views on whether he is suitable for this position. They sometimes don't listen to him when he gives instructions to his staffs. It seems quite inconceivable to me, but it’s real and happening in this competitive society. This situation undoubtedly troubled my father, and it was difficult to find his position in the company. He was a newcomer and needed to get on well with his staffs, while on the other hand, he needed to be trusted by the company. This situation changed until he succeeded in helping the company sign a contract. After listening to his experience, I look at father blankly. He immediately said: “what I want to tell you is that in the society you have met with difficulties and questioned, and there will be a lot of pressure on you. But the most important thing is that you can't immediately question yourself, and don't rush to prove yourself. The point is to believe that you can do what you can; not pleased by external gains, not saddened by personal losses.”
After all these years, I always remember the advice my father said that night. “Not pleased by external gains, not saddened by personal losses.” Looking back at the year when I graduated from junior high school, I was admitted to the best high school in Beijing by the top 100 grades. My parents immediately sent me to a military boarding high school in the United States, and this time I didn't have any complaints. Without any help from my parents, I was admitted to a University that I thought was good and adapted to life here. These moving experiences in my childhood unconsciously strengthened my character and accepted the society earlier. It was hard to understand what your parents did and said when you were young. I need to remember that every dark period and the accumulation of all difficulties of life are just before the dawn of the bright future.