written analysis

"In the evening of Feb. 10th, at around 10 3/p, my husband, Johnny Lee and I were standing face to face in our living room, in Jewett, having a very serious discussion. During the course of this talk, Johnny put on his jacket and got a pistol stating he was going to “The River” and think real hard. He stated he was taking the pistol for protection. I pleaded with him to please not go and during this conversation, he was talking about the fact that I was never going to forgive him and would also use this against him from now on. He was referring to an argument that had begun earlier that morning when I discovered an incident of infidelity. My first reaction when I found out was to leave and return to Austin, but I soon calmed down and the day went quite normally with light discussions on several occassions about how hurt I was. While talking, I heard a pistol cocked. I looked down and he had the pistol at his side. I asked him what he was doing. Johnny had started drinking around 10/a that morning so he was being unreasonable about everything. He made a statement that all he had was his word and now I would never trust him again. Then he moved the gun up and it immediately went off and he fell. At the time was I was so shocked I couldn’t even remember what actually happened when. The gun went off so fast, Johnny did not aim or place it on his head, it just went off as soon as he motioned it upward. Now that I can think clearly I can remember that very clearly. Johnny at other times during arguments that had acted dramticaly so I would forgive him immediately. I truly believe this was one of those moments. I believe Johnny was playing with fire and got burned. I know he knew if he had held the gun to his head I would have done or said anything to make him stop, but in the process of this dramanization the gun went off."