Three essays to fix
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Olga Egorova
Prof. Amarnick
ENG 24
05/13/2019
Dealing with Depression
Depression is fast becoming a global health concern. It is especially dangerous because the first signs are usually hard to detect for the affected individual as well as the people around them. The condition only becomes openly detectable when it is advanced and the affected individual has become adversely affected. There are various techniques that have been advanced for dealing with depression. These include taking medication, having some alone time to meditate, travelling, therapy from professionals and having open talk with family members and relatives or receiving emotional support from them. The selection of the treatment method depends of the affected individual and the severity of their depression as well as the circumstances surrounding the development of this condition. Bruce Springsteen and Kristin Newman in their respective books Born To Run and What I Was Doing While You Were Breeding present important elements of their life that can be equated to the manner in which they dealt with depression at various points of their personal and professional. Their selected method of dealing with the issue either compounded their depression or led to a therapeutic effect. Often taking more of a light hearted approach to issues one is facing in life can help them deal with the complications of depression as opposed to being over analytical of the issues surrounding the depression.
Born To Run is a lot more than the autobiography of a famous rock star. Bruce Springsteen delves into very personal aspects of his life in the book. Of special importance is his experience with depression and the manner in which he dealt with it. He describes his father as being an alcoholic and him being basically raised by his grandmother. However, the death of his grandmother was among the factors that led to his spiral into depression. He notes that among the methods he used to deal with his depression was music and basically being on the road.
Springsteen analyzes the effects of several remedies that he tried to overcome his depression. Among these was medication. He notes that “I’ve been on antidepressants for the last twelve to fifteen years of my life. They work. I return to earth, home and my family” (Springsteen 485). This is an open acknowledgement of the validity of medication as a means to overcoming depression. However, a downside of this method is that one might develop a sense of dependence on medication. The medication also deals with the issue on a superficial level but does not touch on the actual issue causing the depression. This makes it more of a temporary solution to the problem.
There is more of a serious outlook to depression that was taken by Springsteen. He always seemed to be more introspective and really thoughtful about his depression. An example of this was when his father died. He felt the need to be alone and did not want to interact with any person. However, he also notes the importance of friendship and having loved ones around when one is suffering from depression. He notes that “Patti coaxed me out of bed and tried to get me moving. She steadied me, gave me the confidence to feel I’d be all right and that this was something that was just passing. Without her strength and calm, I don’t know what I would have done” (Springsteen 500). This is an open acknowledgement of the fact that loved ones are invaluable when one is suffering from depression. They can help to distract an individual from the depression that they are going through. They are also a pillar of strength and help to remind people in depression that their situation is not permanent.
The rather serious approach to depression taken by Springsteen is in part due to his status as a famous musician. His status in society meant that there were people who looked up to him. He was expected to be a strong pillar to his fans as opposed to a weak individual who needed help. As a result of this level of societal expectation he often turned to himself as the main comforter when dealing with depression. He felt depressed about his desire for stability, a need to feel rooted and his lack of knowledge on how to achieve these desires. After confiding in his friend Jon Landou he decided to seek professional assistance.
Springsteen notes that he used antidepressants for a very long time. However, when he turned 60 they stopped being effective. His psychiatrist also died and he also had to see someone new. The adjustment period was hard for him since he had become accustomed to his original psychiatrist. He had developed a dependence on medication and his psychiatrist as primary means of dealing with depression. This method ultimately proved to be ineffective.
Newman’s depression
What I was Doing While You Were Breeding is a very interesting take on modern day life and how people can deal with emerging issues of life. Newman tells the story of how she chose to travel the world while other people her age were busy having children hence the title of the book. Of special importance is the manner in which her approach to life helped her deal with depression. She travelled the world alone, which is socially awkward for a woman, and discovered the many benefits of taking a rather casual and humorous approach to dealing with depression.
Among the reasons that Newman notes for her travelling is breaking up with a long term lover. She writes that “I handled the heartbreak like many twenty six year olds handled big break ups at the beginning of the third millennium: I pierced my belly button and went to Amsterdam” (Newman 5). This is a very casual way to deal with heartbreak which can lead to depression. However, it worked perfectly for Newman. During her travels she got involved with many of the locals in the places she visited. This was behavior that would be considered slutty back in her home. However, there was no one to judge her during her travels. This experience also taught her that there were many other people in the world and that getting depressed over one was irrational given the potential choices. To this effect travelling, seeing the world and meeting other peoples served its therapeutic purpose in helping her deal with potential depression from the break up.
Newman focuses on involvement in practices that would otherwise be frowned upon in the western world as ways of dealing with depression. Among the ways she personally experimented with is recreational drugs. She notes, in a rather sarcastic tone, that “…drugs make you a better person” (Newman 20). She is alluding to the social nature or environment in which recreational drugs are taken and how they help people connect with one another. She notes how taking ecstasy helped her to better connect with her friends and enhanced the level of communication between them. She is not necessarily advocating the use of recreational drugs as a means of dealing with depression. Rather she is poking humor at the stigma attached to these drugs by mainstream society even when they are taken in moderation. This is part of her greater idea of dealing with depression using humor and basically exploring new elements of life.
Throughout the book Newman emphasizes on being realistic and just experiencing life in the present. She does not necessarily focus on over-thinking life. She notes that people set their expectations too high for a particular version of perfect and then they get crazy sad when they fail to realize it. She is alluding to the tendency by modern day society to expect people to live up to a given standard. These expectations lead to a lot of anxiety among people. People are expected to have hit certain milestones by a certain age. Failure to do this leads to them being considered failures by the people around them. The result of this is people further plunging into depression. Newman is of the school of thought that people should not necessarily be obsessed with the high expectations that are placed on them. Rather they should be more focused on living their lives and doing what makes them happy. She chose to travel because it made her happy as opposed to doing what society expected her to do which was settle down and have children.
Springsteen and Newman present different approaches to dealing with depression. Springsteen chooses music and being on the road as shields to depression. However, on a more personal level he chooses to be introspective and analytical of the issues he was going through in his life and develops a relationship with his therapist as well as antidepressant medication. This, however, led to his depression compounding as opposed to alleviating it. He had to rely on his loved ones as pillars to help him overcome the depression. Newman, on the other hand, takes more of a casual outlook towards depressions he does not think of all the factors in her life that contribute to this problem such as her long term relationship coming to an end or the expectations placed on her by society. Instead she chooses to travel and experience different parts of the world and interact with different people. Her rather casual outlook on life helps her to better deal with depression she does not over analyze her life or fixate on issues that are causing the depression. The analysis of the experience of these two personalities reveals that taking more of a casual and humor based approach to depression is a better approach than overly fixating on the life issues that are causing the depression.
Works Cited
Newman, Kristin. What I Was Doing While You Were Breeding: A Memoir. Three Rivers Press, 2014.
Springsteen, Bruce. Born to Run. Simon&Schuster Paperbacks, 2017
Olga—
You’ve done strong work on this first version. You set up a thought-provoking thesis about two different approaches to depression, and then go on to offer well-chosen examples. Your writing is smooth and clear throughout. Now here are five things to think about as you work on the revision:
1) In your opening paragraph you tell us about different kinds of responses to depression. I assume you got this information from one or more particular sources. Even if you have paraphrased here, you still need to identify the source of your material.
2) As I said above, your thesis is very good. Just take it one step further: make it clear which side Springsteen represents and which side Newman represents.
3) You argue that Springsteen’s approach to depression is more “serious.” Yet some might argue that running around on stage for hours every night, singing and dancing and playing guitar, is not necessarily serious. Can you explain more fully why you indeed consider this behavior to be serious?
4) You also argue that Springsteen is “over-analytical.” Can you give more examples showing how that is so?
5) On page three, include a transitional sentence to show why it is now logical for you to move from a discussion of Springsteen to a discussion of Newman.
This is already a terrific essay. I now look forward to seeing it become even more terrific!
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Olga Egorova
Prof. Amarnick
ENG 24
04/13/ 2019
Nothing Ventured, Nothing Gained
I am a looser. If I will fail on one exam it will ruin my entire life. I have to do everything perfectly, otherwise no one will like me. My relatives will be disappointed. I will not even try because if I fail, I will be ashamed in front other people… This is how many people believe. But we are know that if failure not going to break you down they may teach you to be stronger (to go further and try one more time), may change your life (to find yourself in other field) and teach you of acceptance (step back and look at yourself without pink glasses).
Does not matter how many times you failed, more important how many times you could raise up. Very often it is impossible to say exactly why you won, because sometimes it can be your winning or weakness of your opponent. Failure is not always is a tragedy, because failure may teach us to win. Anyway failures lead us to benefits. We just should to think why did we fail? Maybe because of a lack of experience or particular knowledge for achievements. But in order to win you have to constantly try to do so. If you just start to run you will not become an Olympic champion next week. No one can be a master with finishing only high school. You need an experience in order to achieve something, which you can get only through loosing. You just have to analyze what you have to fix to be successful next time. Also loosing make your spirit stronger.
Losses teach you revision of your plans and actions. If you failed that means your plan did not worked and you have to make up a new one, a better one. It teaches you of sense of priorities and consideration of your strategy. Many people can find themselves in different areas. Failures may lead you to decision that you have to target another field. It does not make any sense to try to be a bad hairstylist if you can be a good baker. You just have to do that you can do better that others. Also, fiasco may not to teach you anything at all, it depends from your personality, stubbornness and purposeful. For someone one failure is enough to stop, but for another person even thousands of them are insufficient.
When you fail you still remain yourself. In another way it will teach you humility that you would not get what you want. Possibly, it will teach you how to find your weakest sides and work on them. It relaxes you and accommodates your ambitions, especially, if you really wanted to win. Failures does not mean that you are looser. Factor of coincidence exists all the way during your lifespan. Sometimes many things depends on your luck more than your potential. Likely, you failed because others did not even played fair and it is very unpleasant opening. Sometimes losses just shows us how weak we really are and that we are far away from perfection. It may encourage you to next step of your development or push you to analyze yourself.
Bruce Springsteen is an American singer-songwriter and leader of the “E Street Band” and author of autobiography book Born to Run. In the book he wrote about his long was to success and all failures and obstacles he met on the way. He said,
“Whatever its results, the California trip would have a lasting impact on me. I got to see the country. I came up against some real talent and held my own, but the band that took us out at the Family Dog stayed with me. They were better than us and that didn’t sit well with me. It’s not that I didn’t expect to come up against superior talent; that happens, it’s the way God planned it.” (Springsteen 137)
He worked really hard to get what he wanted. Somewhere, deep inside Springsteen knew that one day he will become a great musician. He felt his power. The power was in his talent and constant practice of his skills. The author was so sure that he does everything right. In the beginning, his talent did not give him much money. He struggled financially. By playing music he earned $20-30 per week. Anyway, Springsteen and his band did not stop to play music, because of luck of money. The author did not even have space to live sometimes, but he worked on himself, in order to be the best. He wanted to be extra ordinary. Once he has got a brilliant idea: he needs to write his own songs with his music and words for being different from others musicians. He wrote “I’d been up for three days with no stimulants” (Springsteen 191). He was contagious and persistent with his goal. Bruce Springsteen and his band went through all difficulties to become a huge figures in a rock music: they had problems with stuff, police, drugs, rehearsals time, producers and etc. Seems it was long way to success. After all, he appreciated those obstacles and difficulties he met and he was proud of himself and shared his inspiring story to millions of readers. The most important thing he said “I was so lucky to be doing what I loved most” (Springsteen 193), this is a clue that gives him energy and desire to never give up.
In article “On Campus, Failure Is on the Syllabus” by Jessica Bennett the author tell us about problem that spreads among modern teenagers. Students are so stressed out and afraid not to be perfect, that they could not believe that someone may declare it shout-out. “…Students who wandered into the campus hub were faced with an unfamiliar situation: the worst failures of their peers projected onto a large screen. “I failed my first college writing exam,” one student revealed” wrote Bennett. In traditional sense college has to encourage you to be an “A” student literally from the first steps, but if they welcomed people with such a greeting there should be a problem. Now people believe that without education you not going to succeed in life. Parents convince their kids to be a lawyers or a doctors. Everyone wants to get diploma for earning money, but not for their personal development and sense that they will spend entire life for career they truly enjoy. I believe that everyone who really want to pursue their dream eventually will get it even though not from the first try.
Failure not always relate to material things. Very good point mentioned Paul Hudson in his article “6 Failures You Should Experience If You Want to Succeed in Life”. He was talking about interpersonal relationship with lovers, friends and even random people in our lives. “Once you experience a falling-out with a friend, you understand yourself a little bit better and the life you hope to lead. It’s most often the company we keep that determines the life we live.” We always have to be careful with people who surround us. Human relationship could be fragile. People may support us when we going to fail in the above mentioned events.
In my life failures often meant much more than winnings, they always brings some changes. I never wanted to be a perfect in some particular field. My parents never required excellent grade from me in school. They also supported me with good words if I did not pass some exam. They told me, “You will pass next time”. There were always another try and if not it was not a big deal. But if I have some important occasion from my future life may change I try to make up plan B.
I am a winners. Eventually, the failure on one exam will never ruin my life. We always may get up, buck up and start to fight for the dream all over again. So many inspiring examples around us, you just have to look over. Steve Jobs never graduated from college. Walt Disney got fired with explanation of “lacked imagination and had no good ideas” (Kipman). Albert Einstein was speechless until age of four, he could not read until age seven and was diagnosed with mental illness. Former president Abraham Lincoln tried to start new businesses, to be a politician but failed several times. Michael Jordan was removed from his school team. And many, many other examples that should give us the idea that failure is just a starting point.
Work Cited
Bennett, Jessica. “On Campus, Failure Is on the Syllabus”. The New York Times. 24 June 2017, https://www.nytimes.com/2017/06/24/fashion/fear-of-failure.html. Accessed 13 April 2019
Hudson, Paul. “6 Failures You Should Experience If You Want To Succeed In Life”. Elite Daily. 2 February 2015, https://www.elitedaily.com/life/motivation/failures-to-make-want-succeed-in-life/922082. Accessed 13 April 2019
Kipman, Sebastian. “15 Highly Successful People Who Failed on Their Way to Success”. Lifehack. September 20, 2018. https://www.lifehack.org/articles/productivity/15-highly-successful-people-who-failed-their-way-success.html. Accessed 13 April 2019
Springsteen, Bruce. Born to Run. Simon&Schuster Paperbacks, 2017
Olga—
This is a compelling first version. You get the essay off to a terrific start with your opening paragraph about being a loser, and I especially like the closing paragraph as well, as you give quick examples about famous people who had significant failures in their lives. While the beginning and ending are strong, it is the middle section that would benefit from a lot more work. Here are five things to think about as you work on the revision:
1) Your discussion of Springsteen starts too abruptly, and sounds too much like a Wikipedia entry, with your mention of him being “an American singer-songwriter and leader of the E Street Band.” Can you make it clearer why you have decided to talk about him in such depth? Yes, I understand that you are required to do so for the assignment. But it shouldn’t seem that way in the essay; instead, the reader should feel as if it’s entirely logical and meaningful that you explore what Springsteen has to say.
2) I’d like to see you include a number of paragraphs about Springsteen, not just one long one. Refer to what we did in class about “middle” paragraphs: transition/topic sentence, context, quotation, commentary/analysis.
3) The two articles that you cite in addition to Bennett’s are not, as far as I can tell, those that you discovered by clicking the links in her article. They are from self-help websites, which can be fine but are not really serious texts. You can use them, but only in addition to the more substantive sources that she refers to.
4) The assignment sheet asked you to include a specific discussion of the certificate of failure from Smith College. Where is it?
5) On pages four and five in particular, you forget to use the quotation style that we’ve been practicing all semester: lead into the quotation with your own words in the same sentence, then include parenthetical citations afterward. For a review of this, go to the “quotation style” handout on the Course Content tab.
You have a lot to say about this subject, and you say it well! If you can now make more productive use of “Born to Run” and the Bennett article and two other sources, the essay will be excellent.
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Prof. Amarnick
ENG 24
March 16, 2019
The song that reminds me who I am
Sometimes we do not pay attention to things that surrounds us, but when it repeats several times within your lifespan you may experience different feelings about these. Today I want to share my experience about my favorite song. That is so fascinating when music that you had been attracted once, might sound awful for you at some particular period of your life, but when you hear it once again you might get it under different angle and find new meaning.
When I was at age of thirteen I lived in Russia and when I heard American music it was just a collection of beautiful sounds with words that I could not understand. We sang some songs just with humming or some “words” that we pretend we might know. One day my older sister Julia came home with new album and was listening it on old ACR in her room. I heard something behind the door it was new, something different I have never heard before. Those days peers divided on those who were listening rap and rock. I did not belong to any of them. I never liked particular music style or performer and was just listening what was on radio. I asked my sister, “What kind of music is that?” She said, “It is alternative rock”. I still remember the album cover where four guys were standing together on green background. They looked at me with a straight face. There were mysterious, thoughtful and cocky. I got abscessed with “System Of A Down” since first sound I heard. I loved every songs, but I have been always telling everyone that my favorite is “A.T.W.A”. I have chosen it because from all variety of their repertoire that song is most melodically and I like to listen it when I have nostalgic mood.
It is 2003. I’m teenage girl who have the whole spectrum of puberty period with mood changes, hormonal realignment and feeling that adults are stupid and do not understand me. Especially, they could not understand why that young lady have a crush on such a loud music with a bass guitar, drums, and screaming men on foreign language. I’m often listening “A.T.W.A”, it relaxes me. I do not think about the idea of this song, I just like it. I start to memorize and understand words. I remember the line from the song “I've got, nothing, to gain, to lose” which follows me for long period of time and became my slogan for next five years. Meantime, I’m interested in studying English. I want to know what are my idols singing about. I do not have any one among peers who even knows about that group and no one to share my excitement with. I’m translating and trying to remember the lyrics. My English language class teacher seeing my interest and spent more time with me. After school I’m running home for new portion of my favorite music, videos or some information from internet about “System Of A Down”. I’m voraciously absorbs anything about them and jealous for those who have luck to visit their concert.
Few years past I have studied all their songs and unfortunately they stopped to release new music. Once my friend Vasilii told me that there are no more “System Of A Down” exists. They collapsed. Each of them went to their own way and started their new projects, which I did not like at all. They separately could not give me the same emotions. For some time I was listening their old music and my favorite songs. Life changed, I went to college, find new friends, interests. I met my boyfriend Misha. He was familiar to my favorite group and introduced me to guys who had the same music taste. Now we were listening it together and he also liked “A.T.W.A”. Probably, that is how he got my attention, I was surprised he even knew the words. We could sing along the song together, but never think and talk about message of my favorite song. Our relationship did not last long and as many young couple we broke up. I wanted to spend more time together, but for some reasons we could not. I was hurt and resented with Misha. When I was concerned about us I strongly remember which lines from the song sat in my head. The lead singer Serj Tankian was screaming the words:
“You don't care about how I feel,
I don't feel it anymore
You don't care about how I feel,
I don't feel it anymore”.
I felt connected to that song again and it helped me went through it emotionally. I did not feel alone, I felt that I do everything right, that he was a wrong person and eventually I will be fine.
Now, when I’m listening and analyzing their songs I understand that I misinterpreted the whole meanings. But I’m glad that I do not have to look up for translation again. After the research I found that “A.T.W.A” means: “The name stands for Air Trees Water Animals, and is about Charles Manson's environmental movement of the same name.” So, they singing the song about our mother nature, about pollution, about dying animals. They trying to deliver message to people to be careful and respectful to the world around us. The “A.T.W.A” still remains to be my favorite song, but beyond the main meaning now I endowed that song with my own story and my life. It reminds me where I start from, and where I am now. That song instills confidence to this “little girl” in my head. That song reminds me the time when I start to make my own choice consciously. It reminds me about my mistakes and winnings.
Life changed and I do not listen it anymore, but everyone who knew me back there knows I was abscessed with “System Of A Down”. I still love them and wish to meet them personally. I used to dream to meet them when I was teenager. Now it is absolutely possible. I would shake their hands and thank them for emotions they gave me in childhood. That their creation under the name “A.T.W.A” became so meaningful to me. Probably, when I start to listen to them I was too young to understand the meaning and gave my own explanation. I wish would listen them again, but now it is very “heavy” music for me. Some of their songs are not easy to understand, particularly, for none native English speaker. There are always space to think about. I like the fact that I grew up on creations of these artists, they sings about politics, war, injustice, carelessness and little bit about love.
Work Cited
1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVZ8tRlcZhA
2. https://www.songfacts.com/facts/system-of-a-down/atwa
3. https://genius.com › S › System of a Down
4. https://systemofadown.com/
5. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/System_of_a_Down
6. https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=atwa
Olga—
This is a fine, engrossing essay, as you capture what it was like to be a teenager in Russia and falling for foreign music that few people around you were interested in. You write poignantly about how you and Misha listened to “ATWA” together and how you broke up. You help us understand why you were so crazy about this music—and also why it is not something that you listen to much anymore. I don’t think I’ve ever heard of System of a Down before, but I sure am curious now! Here are five things to think about as you work on the revision:
1) Can you do more to create an alluring title and to “hook” the reader in the opening sentences? Right now, the essay really gets going in the second paragraph rather than the first.
2) You say on page three that you “misinterpreted the whole meaning.” Can you slow down and make it clearer what you are referring to?
3) One thing I’m curious to hear about is your thoughts on the Charles Manson connection. Manson was the leader of a group that committed one of the most famous and horrific murders of the twentieth century, so there is a lot to say on this subject. Here’s an article from Rolling Stone magazine that has some useful information about this and other aspects of the group. I urge you to make use of this article in your revision. https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-features/system-of-a-downs-toxicity-10-things-you-didnt-know-251365/
4) Even though the focus of the essay is this one song, it would be valuable to include a discussion, for a paragraph or two, of other songs on the “Toxicity” album. I see from the article I mention above that “ATWA” is one of the album’s “least surreal moments.” At least that’s what the author of the article says. It would be valuable to hear what you think. Is this song indeed less bizarre than most of their other songs?
5) Do not include numbered endnotes. Instead, use parenthetical citations (author’s last name and page number) within the text. If there is no author available, you can give the title.
This is an original and fascinating essay. I’m eager to see how it continues to grow and develop!
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